Dear Mason & Madison,

One year ago today, I found out I was pregnant with the two of you. I knew in my heart that I was carrying two babies, but the confirmation came on the ultra-sound screen. Your big brother Graham was with me, and your Daddy was working. Tears rolled down my face as I saw the two of you on the screen. I knew I had two babies inside of me. I wasn’t shocked. It was a peaceful confirmation. I knew in that very minute when the doctor confirmed what I had thought, that the two of you would be a boy and a girl! There was never a question in my mind. I also knew in my mind that the three of us, would make it through the pregnancy just fine. People talk about “a peace that passes all understanding.” I immediately felt that peace. I felt an understanding that I knew that God would keep us safe.

At that moment while at the doctors office, I knew that I would have to wait to tell your daddy in person, and as you will hear this story over & over again growing up, all he could say was, “No, way are we having twins.” As I showed him the ultra-sound picture of the two of you. He must had said, “No way!” 20 times. The only other thing he said that night, was “Thank goodness we bought the Suburban this year.”

Our thoughts were immediately thinking of the work, cost, how can we, us = NO WAY. Little did we know or realize what was in store for us. It is joy unspeakable. It is hard. It is humbling. It is mind boggling. It is pure wonderment. It is true delight. It is overwhelming. It is continuous. It is a blessing that I will never be able to explain.

But my main goal is to talk about this very day last year. How at that very moment I saw the two of you on the screen, I knew it would change my life forever. Having any baby does, but having two, well my thoughts were just wild from one extreme to another. I thought to myself, “Why me? Why am I going to blessed with two?” How come me, Kellie is deserving of twins? Can I handle this? Can we handle this? Twins never ran in either of our families. This was a total surprise to all family members. How am I going to juggle time with Graham, and the two of you? You see, me your mother was never really “into” babies. When your brother Graham arrived, that was a wake up call in itself. I knew I would have to give-up “my space”, my “personal” time, and be 100% mommy all the time. To my surprise, it wasn’t hard at all to be 100% mommy with Graham. But having three babies, gosh how am I going to handle this?

All I know to say, is God always has a bigger and better plan. I never knew I would have the energy to keep up with all three of you. Grant it, I do not keep up with the house cleaning. But thanks to the good Lord, and some strong coffee we have made it. 5 months into the two of you, and almost three years with your big brother, I will say God always has a bigger & better plan for your life. No matter what you may think of yourself or what you think you are capable of doing, with God’s grace He has made me, a stronger mommy. He has blessed me with unmeasurable amounts of daily doses of goodness and small glimpses of heaven. One year ago today, I knew my life would change again. I just had no idea how much. My worries on that day, are just a memory now. My life has been blessed beyond measure. The two of you make my cheeks sore from smiling all day long. The two of you have made this family complete. The two of you are pure visions of what God can do. How He can take a very unworthy person, make her a mommy of three, and bless her heart every minute of every day.

It is my hope that I always will be humbled by what I have been given, and by the two of you for what you mean to me.

Love always,

Mommy

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